To be overwhelmed by love, happiness, knowledge, beauty and passion that seems to last forever and basking in the afterglows.
Well i bet im the only fool who reads 50 shades of grey and weep.
I feel you ana. We are so alike emotionally.
"We’re coming near to the end of the bridge, and the road is once more bathed in the neon light of the street lamps so his face is intermittently in the light and the dark. And it’s such a fitting metaphor. This man, whom I once thought of as a romantic hero - a brave shining white knight, or the dark knight as he said. He’s not a hero, he’s a man with serious deep emotional flaws, and he’s dragging me into the dark. Can I not guide him into the light?"“I let my mind drift, and I allow nyself to fantasize that he loves me. Oh, and it’s so real, tangible almost, and a small part of my nasty harpy self-conscious acts completely out of character and dares to hope.” “This is why I am so reticent about our relationship - because on some basic, fundamental level, I recognise within me a deep seated compulsion to be loved and cherished.”
"I have had my eyes opened and glimpsed the extent of his depravity, and I know he’s not capable of love - of giving or receiving love. My worst fear have been realised. And strangely, its very liberating."
"Embarrassment and shamr washes over me. Im a complete failure. I had hoped to drag my fifty shades into the light, but its proved a task beyond my meager abilities. Desperately, I try to keep my emotions banked and at bay."I sob and sob. Because we are too smiliar. And this is exactly what I felt with my own Mr grey. I remembered telling him I am stuck in his darkness, tried to bring him out to the light but I failed. Because whenever he cried I knew it was because he loved too much and it wasnt me. Its fine.. (NONONO its not fine its killing me.) life is just like that right? People come into your life to teach you something. Maybe I am just a bridge for him to step out. Just a bridge. And the quote kinda summarised everything. “Sometimes the only reason why you wont let go of what’s making you sad is because it was the only thing that made you happy.” I deserve to be happy, to be cherished. Even if it takes another 10 years to finally find a man who loves me. I will wait because Ive been waiting for like what? 6 years already? But god just make the time more bearable.